Saturday, September 25, 2010

Thoughts on Dr Goh Keng Swee

I read the article in Insight (pg 39 &41 Straits Time 25 sept): New Book on Dr Goh's writings....

And there are many many thoughts... too many at the moment to write, given the limited time against the mountain of tasks to be done.

I have both admiration and contentions with Dr Goh's policies. But when I read the excerpts especially the last paragraph at pg 41, I realised I could have been wrong wrt to understanding his point in the policies which affected the education landscape. I now understood the intentions. But the implementation by the management he aptly described (in his own rather acidic terms) and the mindset (he termed 'cults' rather appropriately) of the framework then, affected many young lives.

I remembered his passing in May 14 this year. It was poignant for me. He was a leader when I was a child. For the first time in my life, I wanted to pay respect to a leader in our country. Not that I did not respect many of our country's leaders. I do. Immensely.

But that was the intense preparation of the arrival of simc's guest, and my schedule was packed. I remembered feeling sad that such a significant leader, described by some as the architect of Singapore's success should not have been more honoured at the period of his passing.

He made mention of brilliance, character, values. These have been thoughts in my mind for some time. These elements are personified in some leaders.

In the present young generation (qualify 30 - 40) of 'leaders', the opportunities to display brilliance if you have them are aplenty. Ironically, even then, very few can cut the fine line between brilliance, intelligence and smart and its not by definition.

Values, well, as long as you hold that as a form of platitude, one would assumed you have them?

But Character is moulded by time, grinding, and taking the stress of pressure not of one's making, and true consideration for the welfare of the community.... That is where the scarcity lies.... and often obliterated by honours of success.
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And in the youths that we are supposed to be nurturing:
Values are questioned;

Character, well, what is the worth against the abundance of new generation distractions and gadgets?

Brilliance of course is still important since it brings one to an honoured pedestal....

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I am only thankful to have grown up in a better generation, built on nationhood and care for community (many thanks to my alma mater). I understood them from my school days and followed closely events that I know will have impact on my country, my family and my life. I know life does not revolve round me or 'my thoughts'

In many ways I may be seen as having a 'deprived' background . Until I was 26, the only country I have been is Malaysia, and travelled by plane only once.

But so what? I developed depth, and thought independent of social wealth, and material wants. I knew my geography without travelling, understood and followed political upheavals by reading. And at 17-18, I understood many of the sacrifices and considerations that my nation leaders faced, and honestly appreciate them. Not that I agree with all the policies. But I know without the stable and good govenance(actually some of the policies are really brilliant) these past 50 years or so, I would not have had the stability of life I had in this country.

How much have you really think for all the verbositiy, complaints of all the endless shortcomings you can see (of course without considering your own)?

When I hear the way many kids talk.... I sometimes feel I have failed as an educator.
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Someone once attributed this saying to Confucius:
It is better to light a candle, than to curse the darkness.

And on my part, I know, Example is better than precept.

I am thankful that someone is publishing Dr Goh's thoughts.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

TERRY K BEAR

It seems there is more interest in Terry K Bear than in me, but i dont mind....

Terry K Bear celebrated his first birthday 2.5 weeks ago, not that those who had carried him first remembered!

I was happy to see Terry K bear one year ago... but have to admit, i was irritated by the name printed on his birth cert!

WHY TERRY K?????

I mean there are 23 kids in 403, why the name of one of them???? And I never got the joke about Terry K anyway. Dont understand why everyone laugh whenever the name Terry K pops up...

I did think of surreptitously changing his name, but what is in a name?!?

Terry K bear lives at the top left hand corner of my bed. I have to admit, I dont talk to him most of the time. But he doesnt mind. And he is really sweet when I am not well... Had horrible head and bad throat the last 2-3 nights and had to wake 2+am to take medicine. And thats when he is most sympathetic, and would cuddle you for comfort.

What I like best about Terry K Bear:
1) He keeps his hair neat and short, and I never had to remind him to have a hair cut.
2) His attire is always neat and proper. And he keeps his NUS High Badge ON!!! I dread every monday checking on attire! Why cant all the kids be like Terry K Bear?
3) He is always punctual and conscientious.
4) He always smiles.
5) He is always polite and never answers back!
6) He would say you are a cool friend, lets play ball!

What more can anyone ask????

Hence Terry K Bear receives the Highly Commended Award unaminously for 2010!

End of Report on Terry K Bear!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Update...

had been zzzzzzing through time and life.........void of reflections amidst many many diverse happenings just over 2 weeks.....meeting up with Megan's mum, el, kuech, mrsM ,mdm F, sst call; courses, deadlines; 2 wakes- one quite sad and poignant; departure of sulis; hospital visits; property matters etc..

Was at sk's place yesterday, it was a month since we had our weekly family dinner there cos first indah left (replacement maid not here yet), so dinner was at my side for 2 weeks, and sulis also left...so packed dinner yesterday.

Honestly i dont miss sulis. That I had kept her so long was quite amazing. The state of my place is better after she left than she was here speaks volume. But she was really good with mum at the last phase. And she does cook close to mum. Her leaving made me feel the emptiness that mum left. But this is life. Funny I am the only one that seems to have problem coming to terms when it is now almost 8 months ago...

i like sk's place. Somehow there is warmth, tho she is very quick tempered. Had bad sore throat and horrible head; sk boiled barley water. This is my definition of warmth.

havent quite decide what i am going to do. Had looked for part-time help, but 3 backup all fell through. actually when not tired, cleaning up the place can be enjoyable. But not when there are stacks of back-log and a perpetually horrible head.

Have been really tired of eating out. I knew I would have problem not having home cooked meal. When i get out of this bout of flu, I must organise myself better, not only wrt household chores, but must factor cooking as well. Actually of the 3 females in the family, I am the one that is most trained in this aspect. In fact I made it a point to cook for mum every dinner on sunday since 2003. Of course she is a severe critique, but thats how you learn.

would still have liked to move in close to sk. But enbloc sale fell through, and i am now affected by the new property rulings. Actually I agree with the rules though it now means alot more issues for me. Have to shelve it till i can think better in nov hopefully....

Tiger and Brownie see more of me over the 1-week break, and now that i have to make it a point to be back by latest 6 so that they get fed. I enjoy feeding them. :) Its quite a treat to hear them slurp the fish soup up. And its a rare treat when both come up (usually only one or the other will, and sometimes both boycott...sigh!) to snuggle up to you in bed...the more i am at home, the more affectionate they are... otherwise i am only 'talked to' when they want their meals....

Maybe life is more balanced now actually.... wish however that i am not feeling so louzy. need this weekend very badly....

honestly i thought of closing this blog. Especially when i feel dried up and feel it is time to return into my own reclusive world again...

Then last nite, strange titles to update came to me...like terry-k bear... o well....lets see....

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

I will...


I will encourage myself.

I will move on.

In strengthlessness, I will find strength

In hopelessness, I will find hope

In storminess, I will find solace

In painfulness, I will find comfort


I will count my blessings... and truly they are many.


I cant turn things round for myself.

But I can do that little to help others turn things round.


To all who cared with messages; To all who cared with silence: Thank you.
And to those who remembered me from more than 10 years back, 5 years back: Thank you.

I read all the cards, and notes again... I will move on.


I have a better hope in glory. The just shall live by faith.

"I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.

My help cometh from the LORD which made heaven and earth." Psalm 121:1,2