31 JULY

Haven't written for a long time. In many ways, this month is one of the most stable month in my life. As it is, things have been clearing and sorting itself out. May and June had been unsettling....then gradually, things fell into place. 

I can only say, I am very very thankful. Being well is not something I am too familiar with. So, to be able to say, I am well, both physically, in the mind and in the soul, is truly a very very great blessing. I have tied up most loose ends, and see to things that had been left for a long time, including seeing a dentist. Although there are still a few outstanding items, they are not big issues, and should be sorted out within these two months at latest. 

B has made some progress, and I hope, it would continue this way. The cats as always are my constant and lovely companions. I just want to give them the best of my time and care.

Have continued with tcm courses, and have picked them up better than I had expected. Barring any unforseen change, I think I will return to taking it as a complete course next year. In any case, it is a pastime. Just as with music....learning the grade 7 pieces more seriously now. To be able to give myself to learn, to pick up what I like is a luxury indeed. Swimming has also been progressing well. I now do 400-500m routinely at least twice a week. After a couple of much discomfort due to surge of blood pressure triggered by severe migraine, have also been alot more watchful and taking juices, fruits etc, all natural stuff. Dont believe in supplements. Herbs yes. I remain very grateful to zh who has been instrumental in leading me toward developing good habits in nutrition, rest and exercise, and care in tcm over the last two years Very very grateful. I could hardly remember a period of relative good health over the last 30 years. To really feel well is a very very great blessing. 

At peace. At rest. This is how I am. What is ahead, I don't worry. Sufficient for the day is the evil thereof. Unbelievably, it is actually possible to be in a stress-less state. I am truly blessed. The Lord is very good and merciful. I live each day, knowing the end would come, and knowing of the blessed hope which I have sought for from my youth. Though it had been a path of travail, and many many pitfalls and long dark tunnels, due mostly to my own folly, to be able to have faith, hope and joy at such a time is a amazing. I had not thought would come in such a way. 

Truly my cup overfloweth.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. Psalm 23:6