and december starts....

this serves more as a time marker to capture events that i want to keep in remembrance.

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november went down as the most sickly month. I was down with flu and each pulled a week. But i am thankful that tcm did reduced the discomfort significantly and at least i did not go down with the characteristic bronchitis or pneumonia. But yes, that ebb feeling came in....

november is critical because finally i decided, i will complete what i have to and bury that albatross weighing in for these two years. That effective means, december is in shackles. And i really want to spend more time with the kids especially this 2014 batch that just graduated. i made the deliberate choice of not attending the occasions to see them graduate....it wasnt a  easy decision as this is really my closest batch, next to 2011. But, i think i do have enough of social occasions.

Have so far managed to see 4 kids separately and there are others that have come in two groups, one a group of 7 and another about 19. For those who feel lost, now that they do not have the safety net of school, i do feel very much for them. And even more so, for those who are leaving spore after 4 years here. K left today - was touched by his card. U will leave this week- she is a very sweet girl with ideals. Then ws next week. ....This batch has really been special, in a different way. I was touched that they remembered and wrote words of thanks. But I don't think they realised how much i really feel for many of them....and remember the one that is gone in jan 2012....that never graduated.....

Seeing sp tomorrow. sp has also been a consolation in his quiet and steady growth.
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Meeting up the kids have been the highlight of almost each week. Resumed regular dinner with K and J last week now that their exams are coming to an end. Now the end of uni exams take some significance. Previously, it usually only mattered to J and K. Had time to have tea with cks and st whose exams ended last week. Was surprised zk also messaged today and arranged for a meal next week. Yes, its really nice.

attended lunch with colleagues from the last school. Appreciate the thought and collegiality. I guess the way is still there, to do some teaching stints, though i did say not the first few months. i guess i need the time and i no longer want to rush from commitment to commitment.

last week's lunch with h, ncl, fll, sc etc was a good session. Always did enjoy their company and there is commonality in discussion about education.

if time had allowed, there were more meet ups, but for the deadline, i had to reschedule all to the following month. Only managed to meet el, dc, pc once and ld.

Started music again....actually i thought maybe just for a couple of months....but as usual, chris just motivates me....so this is one area that i will hold on for a long time. I must stretch myself as far as possible.
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whilst this may just be keeping track of who i met.....but they are very important to me. For one, really with no one in my life most of the time, apart from t and b, and ls and ky on first days, the efforts that people made to keep in touch is significant to me.

there are many other thoughts, but this is not the time to write....i have 20 days left to pull off something that i have not been able to do over stretches of months....so at this time, must make some effort to focus.

Hope by the time, i write the post to close this month....and the year....the mission would be accomplished.