milestone

alot to reflect upon.......events that draw out thoughts through life's journey....milestone for others...and for me, in reflection.
 
attended LF wedding on 5 July. I met her again when B2 was in icu in cgh. She was a lung specialist there.  She was a outstanding kid, very very lovely, in my form class in my last year at scg and the valedictorian of 2000. We had communicated twice over 14 years. She is a treasure. So yes, I attended. And met up with quite a few kids in the class. I don't remember all - it was a difficult year.....that was the year dad passed on .... I held out then, only because of mum. It was a very painful year, for many reasons.
 
So alot alot of thoughts went through my mind......14 years......I am grateful for walking through the tunnel and walking out of it. I realised how much and how far I came through. I used to be very tight in communication with the kids...actually I was very cautious and never shared anything personal because of the circumstance I was in, and honestly, I wasn't sure I was going to pull through. So I kept my distance because I did not want to have a negative effect on anyone, much less kids that look up to you. I was really afraid of hurting them. And that mattered alot. I left scgs, totally directionless, and dark...
 
It was so different within myself now. 14 long years since. 
 
In witnessing the joyous occasion for LF, and meeting up with the kids, some mothers already, I am happy, for them, and for myself. Truly, the Lord has been kind and good to me.
 
And 5 July is a special date, the birthday of my dearest childhood friend and sister.
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I planned my schedule (sigh, alot to do still) such that I could attend the open air gathering for the xinyao reunion. My thoughts for this occasion, I have captured in fb; https://www.facebook.com/siokhui.sie/posts/581992505250739 
I am moving more and more into the Chinese realm....
 
whilst I want to distance myself from the education scene gradually and soon....I still cant turn down those in the field who seek me out for discussion. I don't know what lies ahead...will just go along.the flow .....
 
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the next big event for me is 403 this coming weekend.... seeing them grow from 15 to 21....it has really been a journey....their completion of nushs; entering into ns....and out of ns....and into uni.....and now the threshold of adulthood.
 
The next milestone will be when all graduate....and then into families....
 
I may have no kids of my own. Yet I sometimes feel I have a whole load of kids. I feel happy and blessed to think of them. Not all I know can be close. Yet again, I remember Louisa May Alcott's Jo's boys. I do feel like that sometimes. My oldest kid, wc is now a mother of 3, and into her forties. And still as sweet and caring. I truly know I am blessed.
 
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true, my heart aches. For many reasons. But that's life.
 
 To all that I care and love, to all that I respect and are dear to me, they will always be etched within.
 
I have traversed many milestones of life.