aftermath.....

waves after waves of events .....

leave their marks upon the sand....

Changing tides wash away the prints upon the coast of land...

But those left upon the shores of heart remain...though the heart be rend...

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if people realise this, would they be more careful; more caring?

To those who care, they will care; to those that do not care, they wont want to know...

i made a decision that 100th day... its pointless to go on in this manner at the beck and call of "duty" ... honestly i am very very very weary...

there had been moments that i wavered ... but putting all in the balance... i must move on...

since then, i have given even more to make up for the times i will no longer do so...

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i hate staying up/ or keeping awake at unearthly hours... it reminds me of alot of things... had to do so throughout this week.... whilst trying to catch up on sleep... that familiar horrible darkness was sinking in...

if i give in, i dont know if i will get out.... i must pace myself to settle mum's things one at a time....its going to be hard...

i realised one should not leave things/ too much things for others to clear... it really is very painful... I will start clearing my place as well... i hope i can take it through these few weeks...

The Lord grant me grace to endure through this.... truly the Lord alone is merciful forever....