some warmth

amidst many frustrations...most of all dazedness...i do wish my head wont go on this way...amidst hustle and bustle... and many listenings.....

there has been warmth and kindness...perhaps because it was not expected...it did touch me...

the book on cats...most unexpected...thanks... :)

the load of vitamins...very unexpected too...didnt know how to react...it was really thoughtful...

i never complete any vitamin course... would i remember to complete this course??? and really would it worked, swallowing loads of vitamin pills...??? but then i guess better than painkillers...personally skeptical...but will try it...not because i believe it will work... but touch by the kindness and effort... if just to repay the good intentions... dont know how i am going to remember though...

mum used to be the one that make sure i take them... yesterday when we went out for lunch and ordered the herbal soup, i felt like crying... i missed her soup... dreamt of her again these past days... it is harder and harder to keep back the tears at every thought of her now....i must get through next week... the 100th day...

i also hope it will not be the beginning of strife with B2 and ML etc... I must hold out...

at such low troughs, and very very low effiiciency...i really wanted to work at the notes very very badly... the encouragement from the touches of humanity is a balm...thanks alot....it helps give that nudge to hang on....