'quarter year' reflection...

Though it is not a quarter of a year, but in school calendar, a quarter school year has passed. So time to evaluate...

For all the adjustments, and really alot more work than i had anticipated, i have to say.... its been worthwhile. One class of 36 kids are totally with me. And though i know there are alot of limitations, i hope with time, more boundaries can be broken. And the other, well, in their own terms, most of them are more positive. Its been hard work, and it has paid off.

Honestly, i expect it. Example is always better than precepts.
You cant go wrong, if the intent is to listen, to nurture; and sound content and pedagogical knowledge with clear cognitive understanding being present: Heart, mind, understanding and experience are aligned.With adjustments, it is a matter of time to see growth....

Energy is the only diminishing element.... and that affects patience. I keep reminding the kids, I need the motivation, and their response did motivate me. So, yes, it has been a good 'end' to the term, though there will still be lessons next week. Fully requested by students. That again, is encouraging.

So the tiredness is worthwhile.

Also, it is good to be respected and constantly consulted at every level. And this I really appreciate. There is no need to hold a 'title' to be respected.

The cause, quality and substance of work of value will merit respect. And ultimately true respect draws like-minded educators together. 'Glory' and 'Achievement' are all outward that must constantly be maintained to 'prove' oneself. And without it, where is the meaning, and motivation?

I am thankful not tobe trapped in such a shackle. Though depth is lacking, at least, there isnt superficiality and show.
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And i did learn to say 'No' a few times this week....must conserve energy and strength....and did feel better by today and did some work.....And i think i still have a fighting chance of submitting next week to both organisations for clearance...30% to go for this weekend....

Abit disappointed with some quarters.....it isnt good to be able to perceive too much....but have also learnt to give allowance, and adjust for differences and expectations....that is intelligence... :)

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i have more or less returned back to some form of reclusiveness and seclusiveness and i dont mind....not that i dun miss the 'community' life i had at nush....although there has been communication and enquiry of welfare, it is not the same....this was one of the factors that had held me on for so long... and yes, i miss the kids and the tenor of conversations and thought.....

i am very thankful not to be drawn into a whirlpool of activities, 'instructions' and duties with consequent frustrations and vexations.

actually at the personal level, have gained in many ways; reading, reflecting, designing of materials in multiple context; more time for people, pussies, and music. The only significant loss is material... but the gain cant be measured by material.

and the other loss is i am gaining weight.....sigh!

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Looking foward....

the next quarter will see even more challenges and a few 'assignments' will pave way for some insights into possible future decision.....not my comfort zone, but there is a need to venture forward, if only to eliminate the route....

hopefully, dissertation will progress....

hopefully, things will not go too far wrong with those close at hand..... ls and her ailing sister remain a heavy load....
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Given the major change made, really, apart from the pains of life, things have really been good.

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Truly, the Lord has been good, and exceeding kind and merciful. Indeed, I realised how blessed it is to have the knowledge of the truth. In the midst of turmoil and darkness, the comfort of the Scriptures gives deep consolation. The world by wisdom knew not God. Sad, but true. Yes, godliness with contentment is great gain.