what causes dreams?

i rarely dream, and really prefer not.

Dreamt of mum twice this week... its always the same recurring dream, taking different forms...she is really unwell, and telling me, hoping i could do something for her... i manage to 'stop' the dream the first time, and told myself firmly, she is no longer here, you cant do anymore. In the dream last nite i brought her over to this new place, and worry that she will miss rv, and was thinking of how to drive her to visit rv and gwc etc..... and the dream went on...always helpless at my end...

i woke at 2+, disturbed. I cant account why the dreams recurred more frequently.... not too long ago, it was of dad...

yes, its crunch time, and it remains to be seen how i am going to juggle through the next 4 weeks, with school, attending lessons, and assignments....its going to be a make or break crunch... but i want to spend time with the kids badly too...

and yes, i havent been in the best of health. But i did not think i was sliding down...

perhaps i am more perturbed by the path ahead than i would acknowledged... yes, i have to admit, i am quite sad... whatever, i need to move on...

i am very sorry abt mum. But i cannot do anymore for her... looking after sk and s1 is the best i can do... i know i must walk out of this abyss...