update

This is going to be a short update....short is relative to the long list of thoughts on my mind....

The past week was really in a muddled maze....i completed the assignment in a blog form (thanks for the technical support!), and though essentially I structured in all the content, in the end, I didnt have time to edit, and found so many places where it could have been better and left out some thoughts that i had wanted to include....sigh....so, it was disappointing for myself... I really wanted to do it well, as this is the last of my assignments...and i really enjoy doing it in a different way.....

somehow everything took so long to put together and the last 2 days were killing, especially the last day. I sat in front of the laptop for 17+ hours, leaving it only to feed the cats, and to get bread to eat ....and at the end of it, it was almost 3am....and i still had to struggle to go for remedial on sat morn....

my brain felt really really weird and zombed. Sprained brain.

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another significant event last week ~ hmy flew off to hku....and soon 2 more will be leaving....the kids are growing up....so fast....exciting for them.....for oldies, alot of mixed feelings..... o well....

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and the maid didnt come back as agreed. In many ways, no loss. Will not dwell on negatives. I am glad to have the chance to do the little i can to support sk, its good to have someone to care for....

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L's dad passed on last week....its going to hit her hard.... i understand, cos she is going to be alone, like me....

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prelim marking will start next week. i can see half the kids are really still not ready. though there is improvement, it was too much in too short a time...and........

on my part, i take a deep breath and brace myself for the next 7 weeks of marathon. Need to really strategise....but it all depends if they have the fight to work hard. I view this phase with alot of mixed feelings again....but whatever it is, i must complete it well, to make this year purposeful and meaningful. Though some things had turned out of course, the essence of why i am where i am now, is still there, and in a way, the effect is far more.

If one look only at tangible results, it may not reflect. Alot of lessons are not measured by results....one student wrote in their class fb, lets study hard and make ms c proud of us....this group has taken flight already, and i am thankful....

but there are still quite a few, who is still struggling to keep afloat....be it weak foundation or weak will....i just want them not to quit, to try to the end....

Its not going to be easy...in fact its going to be gruelling....especially when night study starts again........i need the stamina to pace them, to push them, to help them. Its not that results matter to me, it serves as an indicator, as a motivation, but i need them to believe in themselves, to break the vicious cycle of non-performance, to find value, in determination and hard work. I hope i will have the stamina to run this last lap of marathon.

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piles of backlogged work to clear....hope i can embarked on collecting data for dissertation once sept starts.....